At last, I am free
To be the way I am,
But in the second world, Alas!!
Gone are the days,
Of suffering, of helplessness
Full of contempt & chaos,
Of deep, profound pain
Alas, all that ends in vain
I was screaming, I remember,
Let me live, “Oh Lord help me”
And I remember people around me,
Cursing me, swearing at me.
Why? Was it my fault?
I remember the day,
When my creators left me,
To be gone forever...
I was crying & the world around me,
Was moving away…
As if I am not what I am
But an alien from another world
A creation of a lesser god.
Why? Was it my fault?
Earlier they loved me, adored me,
Showed me how to work,
To laugh and to sense…
But, after a biological test,
After the declaration of me
Being HIV +ve
They left me, to suffer,
To grieve alone
To die, in silence
With only me, to mourn me…
Why? Was it my fault?
I ask you…
… was it my fault?
For which I die,
Without a word of love
Without letting them know
That I can love, and am lovable,
That they can hug me, touch me,
Play with me…
Without excursing upon
Themselves my disease…
Why? Was it my fault?
Did I not deserve,
The love, joy, peace and pain of life?
Did I not deserve to be,
To live a life of my own doings.
Why am I snatched of a chance to live
To give & to prove what I can do
Why in the age of spoiling
My clothes with play,
Do they splurt me in my blood
Without dismay!!